You and I Align

A song I wrote on guitar tonight. Inspired by the moment? Yes!

You And I Align

Well it started as a foolish game,

Started thinking of the mess I made,

When your love was just a big façade,

When the moon controlled the ground we’re on,

And we stayed up till the break of dawn,

We would play games all across the lawn,

But never did the earth and moon align,

And never ever did the owl tell a lie,

And never ever did our eyes collide….

When will you and I align?

When will the stars fill up the sky?

When will our hearts beat at the same time?

When will you and I align?

Why do we live on opposite sides?

Why does it have to be the Sun provides?

Why are our shadows all  the feelings we hide?

When will you and I align?

When one is off the other’s on,

I’m sorry if I can’t say I’m wrong,

How does a short story get long?

Or is that something that you just won’t get?

Why is it always that my heart is in debt?

I always feel like the stars break a sweat,

And even when my head was away,

I still loved you like a bluebird loves May,

I just never really thought that way….

When will you and I align?

When will the stars fill up the sky?

When will our hearts beat at the same time?

When will you and I align?

Why do we live on opposite sides?

Why does it have to be the Sun provides?

Why are our shadows all the feelings we hide?

When will you and I align?

Hypnogogic or Surreal Pop Art

I was just introduced to the artist, Franco Brambilla.  I was stunned when I came across his art as it was the most unique and interesting art I had seen in years.  While it may seem mediocre to some, the art speaks for itself.  Brambilla brings in depictions of vintage characters and pop icons and melds them with sci-fi and 3D landscapes resulting in a truly enigmatic piece of art.  

I like to call these pieces hypnogogic or surreal pop art. 

Take a look at the art and give me your thoughts. 

Here are some examples of that below.

Die, Mechadyno! Die

Beware of Friendly Strangers!

Our Lord of Darkness

The Aquatic Conspiracy

ReBible

At Lido Cup

Let me know your thoughts on these great pieces of art.

My Official 2010 Summer Jams!

Trust The People You Don't Trust

Does that not make sense?

Well maybe it will after I explain.

In life we have two types of people we surround ourselves with. The people we trust and keep close to us. And the people we don't trust and keep at a safe distance.

The Trustworthy Folk

We divulge most of our secrets to them if not all. We can almost certainly count on them in our times of need. We depend on them to be there when we need them. They are our closest of friends. They are usually loyal but may have some innocent slip-ups here and there. If they end up doing something untrustworthy we are usually hurt quite a lot, sometimes beyond repair.

The Untrustworthy Folk

We then have the people we don't trust. Sometimes we are still friends or friendly with these people. However, we keep them at a safe distance and we don't necessarily divulge all our darkest secrets and personal information to them. These people may in fact be good people at heart but something has happened in their lives that have made them who they are today. They tend to not share or divulge much information either. They tend to put walls or, what I like to call, titanium walls.

Why would I trust the untrustworthy?

The reason here is that you we are already certain about these people. We know who they are and what they will do. We know their motivations and intentions. As much as we want to trust them at times we know in the end we can't. And if they do something untrustworthy we understand because these people are consistent.

The trustworthy can also be consistent but honestly, no one is ever 100% trustworthy their entire lives. There are always temptations and other factors that can change people's actions and thinking. That is why we must keep a cautious (not overly cautious) watch on the ones we trust so that we protect ourselves from harm and irreversible damage.

I have friends and family learning the hard way about these types of people right now. People they have trusted for years in some cases. No one's perfect. Always check up...for yourself if no one else.

-Chris Ryan


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Love, Sex & Relationships: Part I

I'm going to begin this blog by saying that most of what you'll read in here is what I've learned through my own experiences in life coupled with fact-based knowledge.  There's no definitive answers when it comes to what makes each of the three topics above work, but in life we take our chances and try our best to make each work.

I'm going to go in order of what I feel is least complicated to most complicated.  I'm going to only scratch the surface here as these are topics I could go on about forever. It's a bit long, but I assure you it's very interesting.

Sex

Almost all of us think of it.  Almost all of us want it. Some more than others.  Some less than others. Sex. Sometimes it's a deciding factor in relationships.  I personally would never base someone's sexual performance on whether or not I was in a relationship with them.  I would then be telling myself that I could love someone or not love someone based on our sexual compatibility.  The human psyche is more prone to be attracted to those whose sexual energy matches their own.  Sex can actually become quite complicated in a relationship.  The gay community is notorious for this, obviously, because our sexual preferences are ambiguous.  As hard as we try, we can never really classify 100% if someone is a top or a bottom.  We, stereotypically, identify more effeminate males as "bottoms" and the more masculine males as "tops." However, in my experience you can never, ever make that judgement based on someones character. It's more common nowadays that partners will share these roles in a committed relationship if neither identifies fully as one or the other.

But what does sex really mean to us? Does it mean as much as we think it does? What is sex without passion? Easy enough, it's JUST sex.  Lovers will look for passion in a relationship.  Sometimes one partner more than the other.  It can become a sensitive subject if one partner wants sex more than the other does.  In love, we relate sex with love.  We tend to think that if our partner doesn't want to have sex with us as much that they don't really love this.  In fact that can be quite untrue.  Of course, it can also be true.  A partner who is not willing to be passionate will typically not engage in sex with their partner due to the fact that the passionate part simply turns them off.  However, some partners are simply just not as sexual as others.   Sex can mean one thing to me, and a completely different thing to you. Then there's the one night stands, the f*ck buddies, group sex, etc. These are all about the physical nature of sex and the pleasure side of it. No pun intended, but things can get sticky when a person becomes attached to someone who is purely out for the physicality/pleasure of sex. In my opinion there's three different categories that sex can fall into:

Physical Sex - The more aggressive, dominating, pleasure seeking and powerful sex that is without emotion. This is the kind of sex that is usually seen during the "lust" stage.  It's seen a lot in the beginning of a relationship or with one night stands or f*ck buddies. It tends to fade over time in a relationship, but is ever present with an ongoing sexual partner that is not emotionally tied to the other.

Emotional Sex - Completely about passion and less about the physical nature of sex.  The partner usually wants some emotional gratification out of it, rather than a physical. In my opinion this could be quite unexciting and usually tends to fade with time.

Physi-Emotional Sex - The best sex of all.  It's physical, it's emotional and it's extremely powerful and gratifying for both.  If the chemistry is right between two I truly believe that this will always be present in the relationship.  It never gets boring, every time is like the first time, and the pure raw nature of it is completely satisfying for both.

Relationships

Now things get a bit more complicated.  I'm going to start with some of my own experiences in relationships and jump from there.

I've had a interesting and long path in relationships.  I've had four long-term relationships and 3 short-term relationships.  I've had flings here and there as well, but anything under 3 months I classify as a fling.  Anything over a year I classify as long-term and anything under a year, short-term. I've had closed and open relationships.  I also was polygamous for a period of time.  I at one point believed that polygamy was the way I was going to be the rest of my life.  I struggled with commitment issues which I attribute to my parent's divorce at the very early age of 9 years old.  I was quite devastated by their quick and sudden divorce.  I just thought that they would always remain together.  I was quite sure growing up that parents did that.  It wasn't until I was much older that I matured into the idea of divorce and the fact that some people just grow apart.  It took many years of trial and error for myself to realize what I was doing was wrong.  I just believed forever that people could not remain together forever so why even try. My perceptions of love and relationships were extremely skewed for a long period of time.  It wasn't until just a few years ago that I realized that it really is possible for a person to love another person unconditionally forever.  Even if that couple goes through ups and downs, break-ups and back together, if you truly are in love with someone unconditionally, you will always be there for that person.  And you can in fact be in love with one single person your entire life.  It's an almost unimaginable thought, but there are millions of couples who have done it.

Relationships are physiological, mental and emotional in nature.  They are unpredictable, they will throw you for curves, they will bring you to the bottom and then back up to the top again.  But we must never go into a relationship thinking we know exactly what's going to happen.  I constantly say to others, "hope for the best and prepare for the worst." It keeps our heads above ground and our defenses below water.  Each person we meet and every relationship we have will be unique.  The best advice I can offer anyone in any relationship is to never jump into any relationship with anyone.  It's best to take your time and really get to know a person before you're in a relationship with them.  And always make sure you can be "friends" before you're lovers.  Those who aren't compatible as friends will never truly work as lovers.  You want your partner to be your best friend as well as your lover.  We always forget this cardinal rule when going into relationships too. I've jumped into relationships with people before I could truly call them a friend and it has never worked for me.  Of course, the opposite can sometimes happen.  We can sometimes develop a friendship after we begin dating someone.  While it is rarer, it is possible, but I don't suggest it.  There's no right or wrong method in relationships which is the scariest part about them.  No book is going to tell you how to have a successful relationship.  There are of course suggestions one can make, and obvious doings that one should not engage in, but Isaac Newton, and no other scientist has come up with the "laws" of relationships yet.  Physics are much less complicated :-).

Love

Now the most complicated of all, Love.  What is love? People have tried to explain, define and characterize it for years but there is no possible way we could come up with a definitive answer for "love." Love is a physical-emotional mix of feelings. Love ebbs and flows through the circuits of the body. It affects our neurons.  It moves us physically.  It lifts us. But love is tricky.  It disguises itself sometimes too.  It fools our brains and can blind us completely.  Love is both divine and dangerous.  Love, as in the feeling, can lead us to do foolish things, it's almost intoxicating at times.  However, with anything, there is never complete pleasure, there must also be some pain.  Sometimes the pain is too much to handle for some. As time goes on, we become less affected and more immune to the devastating affects, and are able to overcome them.  Love in it's purest form, when shared between two people can be absolute ecstasy.  The joy love can bring is like nothing else in the world. It's quite an amazing feeling. Can we keep the feeling of love? Sometimes yes and sometimes no.  Loves intensity will decrease over time, but when it's unconditional, it never goes away, it always stays. There are many different forms love takes too.  The love we have for a parent or sibling is much different for the love we have for a partner because attraction is added into the mix.  I'll eventually come to attraction in one of my blogs. How one defines love is unique to the individual.  It's good to fall in love, it's good to be hurt, and it's good to overcome that hurt.  Love, whether it knows it or not, makes us strong people and can even sometimes develop our character.  One thing I can tell you is that "love" never destroys you, hurt does.  Love has no malicious qualities.  Pure love is kind and it doesn't judge.  It knows no bounds and it has harbors no contempt.  Love is a feeling I hope everyone in their lifetime experiences.  It would be quite ashame to never feel the pure ecstasy of love.


-Chris Ryan
"I know I love someone when their happiness becomes equally as important as my own." -Me

The Art of Balance

      In life we are constantly faced with things we must do, things we want to do, and things we do to fulfill our ego.  We are then faced with balancing these "things." How does one go about balancing their lives? What is most important? What comes first? What comes last?  I would like to discuss this topic and share how I go about balancing my life. 

The Art of Balancing Life 


    I really do believe that balancing life is an actual ART.  We must be fully aware of what we need to do, want to do, and what we do to fulfill our ego.  What do I mean by fulfill our ego? Well, in life there are certain things we do that we necessarily don't need to do nor want to do, but do them to fulfill an inner desire we hold in order to be complete and/or satisfied.  For example, doing something for a friend that you necessarily don't want to do but do it for the sake of being nice would be considered this.
    We start balancing our lives by getting ORGANIZED!  Organization is KEY to balancing.  You have to know "what" you are doing in order to balance out the things that are most important. Make a list! That's easy enough.  Write down all the things you think are MOST important.  Make sure you schedule enough time to do those things first.  Then schedule the rest of your tasks accordingly.  I have gotten to the point where I don't necessarily need to write down anything, however when I have a list and actually get to "attack" it per say, it makes doing the tasks that I don't necessarily want to do more enjoyable because I actually see that I am progressing by crossing things off the list.  It's amazing how the mind works with such simple tools.  Writing a list and scratching things off as we do them really makes one feel better and productive!
  Balance is more than just our daily tasks.  Balance is setting aside time for our friends, relationships, work, exercise, personal time, etc.  It seems that in today's society we are faced with a plethora of commitments every day! It sometimes feels we don't have time for anyone, anything and most importantly ourselves!  Yes! Time for us is just as important as it is for ANYTHING else in our lives.  I learned that from experience.  I was spending time with friends/boyfriends almost every night of my life and I began to lose who I WAS!  I had lost time to do what I always did.  I made a New Year's Resolution to make more "Me" time and I can tell you that I am much happier after having done that. Making time for our friends is important too.  Friends help us, support us, and share with us what we cannot share with ourselves.  Friends are the pillars that hold us up.  Without our friends we would fall in hard times, which is why I always make sure I have a lot of time for the people that I care about and truly care about me.  I set aside days for friends’ time and days for me time. Setting aside time always makes it easier to balance things and avoid commitment overlaps, which I used to have a real problem with because I would make commitments and forget that I made them!


And Then There Were Three...: The Boyfriend, The Friends and Me. 


   Now we have our "me" time and friend’s time.  Now here comes the hard part.  We go out and we meet someone we really like.  It really comes down to your schedule here and based on that you can appropriately schedule "me", "friends" and "boyfriend" time.  Obviously, it's important to keep the one you love happy, and it's most likely that you'll want to spend all of your time with them at first.  That necessarily won't last.  As time goes on, you'll be have other activities in life that keep you busy, you'll want to spend more time with your friends and family, and of course you'll want time to yourself.  However, I do believe if you find someone you truly connect with and feel is your soul mate, you'll be able to fit them into any aspect of your life.  Remember though, it's always important to have time to yourself to meditate on life, your goals, your ambitions and disconnect from the world.  Never forget your friends though.  No matter who you fall in love with, or what begins to take up time in your life, your friends are the FAMILY you choose.  They are so important, especially in the gay community considering we're more apt to make our friends our family of choice.  


Don't OVER load!


   I so often see people taking on more than they can handle.  They either work too many hours or too many jobs or over compensate in one area.  Eventually these people burn out! The reason for this excessiveness is usually to escape a part of their lives they don't want to deal with or because they are dependent on whatever it is they are over compensating in.  It's not healthy to do this no matter what anyone says.  I have read a lot of data suggesting this. Detach yourself from whatever it is you're doing excessively. Try doing something else! Take yourself away and try something that you enjoy! You will feel happier and more fulfilled! 


My Life on the Balance Beam


   My life hasn't always been balanced.  It's actually been very chaotic at points.  I have been excessive from one extreme to the next in my life.  I have had tons of friends, I have had no friends, I have had alone time, I've had no alone time, etc.  My life started to become more balanced in my last semester of college and once I began working a full time job.  I feared that a full time job would take away from my personal life dramatically.  What actually happened was the reverse.  My full time job actually balanced my life naturally.  I began an actual schedule and routine.  I don't always follow my routine to the exact, because I like to mix things up a bit.  However, I find that following it most of the time really helps me and I feel good about it.  I have time set aside for my friends usually at the end of the week and weekend.  I have personal time in the beginning of the week and I really enjoy that. Nothing is in excess and everything is spread out nicely.  I get to go to the gym, spend time online, write, go to the city, spend time with friends, and do the hobbies/activities I always wanted to do. I have balanced my life in a way I believe works.  It's different for everyone.  The key is figuring out what's most important first and never going to extremes with anything. Balance in our lives is KEY to healthy development, mentally and physically.


-Chris Ryan

Provincetown 2010....GURRRLLL!

What I learned to P-Town, in P-Town and from P-Town!

-I learned that one night a "strut" can be all over the place and the next night that "strut" can be FIERCE. Girlfriend.

-If you want something really bad, ask for it in Spanish.

-If you want even more, tell the other person that "you look GOOD" (as in, time to STOP so there's more for me)
-If you don't want a mass text message sent to the entire gay population in NYC and Boston, do not cause a scene at the Lobster Pot. (especially if it's one of your little twink friends)

-Slamming doors is not fun, but does get a message across...kinda.

-Figure out sleeping arrangements prior to sleeping.

-I've taken unlimited Mimosas for granted my whole life.

-If you're best friend is hitting on a guy, it is OK to go and sit on that guys lap and start making out with him. Really, it is. 

-Young people like to write notes still (even in dark reams...err rooms)

-It's not okay to wear a Speedo with a FUPA (*Fat Upper Penile Area*)

-It is also not okay to hit on guys while wearing a Speedo with a FUPA. Thanks and please visit LFSG.org (Large FUPA Support Group) to correct this.

-Try not to talk about a person while they are sitting directly in front of you.  Especially when the person you are talking to is signalling you over and over again to stop (i.e. So who is that porn star guy? or Who is the crazy one?)

-To everyone's shock; Boston-ite, Doug Kenney, sings in the wonderful show "Suddenly Susan Boil"

-Sleeping on bars is scary and dangerous!

-Hot tubs are fun and mysterious

-If you think that be bizee, THIS be bizee.

-If a someone uses a first and last name to be addressed, it's okay to combine the two. (i.e Bandrews)

-Sookie?

-Crazy people can be fun, but remember; they are still crazy.
-If you wake up lying in feathers, it's probably because you were wearing a feather boa last night.

-The tranny realness at the boat slip can be a bit overwhelming at times

-The waitress at Enzo is Gonzo. Oh and spend less time explaining to your table what you're going to do and just do it!

-It is not okay to lock best friends out of rooms and it is also not okay to take pictures of people hooking up in a room. I never knew this.
-Fireworks on TV are just as exciting as they are in person.

-Sticking your feet outside of cars attracts guys. (Thanks Will)
-Re-learned that "baby if you don't want something taken, don't leave it out." (Thanks CJ)
-Car rides with my closest friends can be A LOT of fun.  Especially when hitting on guys in other cars and telling incredibly funny stories.

-Tranny Panties are very much in at the moment.

But most importantly of all...When in doubt...When upset...When happy or when you're sad...At the start or at end of nearly every conversation..Just say...

GURRRLL!

Love you guys...Thanks for a wonderful trip!

My Pride 2010

PRIDE 2010

Not only was this a celebration of my 11th year since I had come out but it was a turning point in my promotions/production career.  This year I threw two of the largest events I've ever thrown that required hours of work and months of creative energy.  I could not have done this without the wonderful teams that were involved with me on this pride.  I'd like to give a big thank you to: Lee Chappell, Ira Kushin, Thomas Sickler, Tony Moran, Alan Picus, Shane & Victor (JustCircuit), Mark & Robert (MRNY), Gary and Stephen (Noize), Joel and Joseph (Grindr) and everyone else who helped make this an absolutely spectacular weekend that will be remembered for years by all of those who attended and participated!

Wednesday

REWIND w/ Special Guest Josie Cotton

Wednesday at Rewind was a huge success.  We had Josie Cotton perform at the Ritz.  She sang songs from her upcoming album "Pussycat Babylon." She's a true star and an 80's icon.  She's best known for her hit "Johnny Are You Queer?" from the 80's.  Josie lit up the stage and got everyone moving with her fantastic new electro-pop songs! Akash, Joe Toulon and Richard JMV helped make the night wonderful by being the wonderful hosts they are and participating in promotions. Both levels were packed and the booze kept flowing! Great way to start off PRIDE!

Thursday

Campus Thursdays PRIDE Kick-Off w/ Kimberly Cole

What can I say? If you were there you would know how incredibly packed we were.  The night was an absolute success as it has been for the past four and a half years.  That couldn't be done without the incredible work of Alan and Dougie.  The place was packed with only the hottest of boys and Kimberly Cole gave a smashing performance of her new hit single "Smack You." 

Friday

DESIRE at Capitale

By far the most stunning event of the weekend.  Every event paled in comparison production wise to this event.  I won't say how much it cost to create this event but it was well worth it in the end.  We had interactive screens the created 3-D versions of the people that stepped in front of them, hundreds of decor pieces, 3-D visuals, an immense stage with a huge screed that displayed the visuals all night, stilt walkers, Geisha girls, jugglers, Dances of Vice and tons of costumed fantastic-ism! It was pure fantasy! Everyone delivered and the crowd was HOT! Sony's new artist, Oh Land, performed a fuel inspired set of music that brought the house down as she pranced around the stage and played her own *specially* designed machine! Hector Fonseca and Alyson Calagna tore up the dance floor with only the HOTTEST beats! It was truly an incredible and unforgettable night! Check out some of the amazing photos from MRNY.com below:

Oh Land Performs "Maskarade" @ Desire 

More Photos Here

Read More About This Event Here

Sunday

DESTINATION :: Pacha

The most fantastic way to end pride was at Pacha on Sunday night.  The place was packed wall to wall with the hottest guys who were ready to dance to the incredible beats of Tony Moran, Manny Lehman and Susan Morabito.  The music was absolutely incredible and made the night magical.  Ultra Nate performed two incredible sets! Danielle from the Real Housewives joined us as well! The event was an absolute success on all levels!

Photos Coming Soon...


And a VERY Special Thank You To EVERYONE Who Attended These Events And Made Them What They Were! I Love You ALL!

Decoding A Complicated Person

What is it that makes complicated people so fascinating? Why do we want them? What makes someone complicated? And how do we unlock their secrets?

Let's start with the last question here...

A complicated person is best characterized by having these traits:

-Unreasonable
-Argumentative
-Needy
-Complex personality (not easy to decode)
-Wavering emotions/feelings
-Fickle
-Inability to make decisions
-Changes mind often


Why would we want someone with these characteristics?

Now why is that we often find ourselves most attracted to the people WITH these traits? I'd like to say it's the challenge but part of me thinks there's much more there than the fact that people want a challenge. Of course, part of this is that some people want a person that isn't going to give in to them, they want someone they have to work for. We all enjoy the thrill of a challenge. If a relationship were easy there'd be no fun to it.  Can you actually imagine never having a fight with your partner? Of course there's a healthy moderation of arguing that goes into any relationship, or should I say "happy medium." I think another part of this is that some people are just not ready for a relationship and they date people that are complicated in order to sabotage this commitment.  Crazy right? It's not that crazy when you think of it.  Our subconscious plays with us all the time; we just don't realize it. We constantly do things to mentally block us from certain situations.  Is this healthy? Maybe it is or maybe it isn't. We might saving ourselves from disaster.  Complicated people very rarely change themselves and if they do, it's only modification of certain behaviors.  The sad part is that even those modifications that they make see relapses.  There's very little we can to make a complex person laid-back and easy going.

Decoding a complex mind

Rather than change them, there is one thing we can in fact do.  We can learn to accept them for who they are and better yet, decode them. There's good news and bad news; decoding them is easy, accepting them is not always as easy. If you've ever heard the song by U2 "With or Without You", it's kind of like that. We can't live with these people, but yet we find ourselves unable to live without them.  Decoding them is the first step to accepting them.  First, they have to be willing to have open and honest communication with you.  This isn't always the case, especially if they've had traumatic experiences in which case they may never truly open themselves to anyone.  However, if they do truly love and care for you, they will be able to indulge secrets from their past when the time is right.  In order to understand someone presently you must know their past.  So much can be explained from the past and how they were raised.  The past is a map to the future.  Do they come from a divorced family? Did they grow up with both parents? Were they abused as a child? Did they experience a traumatic death or loss? Did they go through rough break-up(s)? And are they diagnosed with personality or psychiatric disorder? Obviously if it's the latter decoding won't be as easy.  You have to break the person down and build them back up again. Ask the necessary questions in a kind and gentle manner.  Make sure that there is an open line of communication on both ends and also be willing to indulge information from your past as well.  Do NOT judge them whatever you do, this will immediately draw a red flag to them.  If someone is willing to open up to you, you have to be ready and willing to accept everything you hear if you're going to help them.  Of course there are exceptions, if a partner told me they had killed someone I would be running for the door, not talking to them! Once you've learned of their past you'll be able to learn much more about their present mind state.  If this is someone you're seeing, ask about past relationships as it's extremely important in understanding your current relationship in most cases.  People can be badly damaged if they went through an abusive relationship and not necessarily physical, but more importantly mental.  Mental abuse is far more damaging and lingering than physical abuse, unless of course it was prolonged and sustained abuse.  Everything you will learn by asking questions puts the puzzle pieces together.  Obviously this is all very subjective so for me to say exactly what you will learn and how to decode from that is unique to every situation.

In my opinion, complicated people are only worth the hassle if you really and truly love them and have the patience to deal with them.  A complicated person doesn't only damage themselves but can damage those around them.  Be careful of who you align yourself with.

-Chris M.

Animals.

Pigs on the Wing (Part One) If you didn't care what happened to me, And I didn't care for you, We would zig zag our way through the boredom and pain Occasionally glancing up through the rain. Wondering which of the buggars to blame And watching for pigs on the wing. Dogs  You gotta be crazy, you gotta have a real need. You gotta sleep on your toes, and when you're on the street, You gotta be able to pick out the easy meat with your eyes closed. And then moving in silently, down wind and out of sight, You gotta strike when the moment is right without thinking. And after a while, you can work on points for style. Like the club tie, and the firm handshake, A certain look in the eye and an easy smile. You have to be trusted by the people that you lie to, So that when they turn their backs on you, You'll get the chance to put the knife in. You gotta keep one eye looking over your shoulder. You know it's going to get harder, and harder, and harder as you get older. And in the end you'll pack up and fly down south, Hide your head in the sand, Just another sad old man, All alone and dying of cancer. And when you loose control, you'll reap the harvest you have sown. And as the fear grows, the bad blood slows and turns to stone. And it's too late to lose the weight you used to need to throw around. So have a good drown, as you go down, all alone, Dragged down by the stone. I gotta admit that I'm a little bit confused. Sometimes it seems to me as if I'm just being used. Gotta stay awake, gotta try and shake off this creeping malaise. If I don't stand my own ground, how can I find my way out of this maze? Deaf, dumb, and blind, you just keep on pretending That everyone's expendable and no-one has a real friend. And it seems to you the thing to do would be to isolate the winner And everything's done under the sun, And you believe at heart, everyone's a killer. Who was born in a house full of pain. Who was trained not to spit in the fan. Who was told what to do by the man. Who was broken by trained personnel. Who was fitted with collar and chain. Who was given a pat on the back. Who was breaking away from the pack. Who was only a stranger at home. Who was ground down in the end. Who was found dead on the phone. Who was dragged down by the stone. Pigs (Three Different Ones) Big man, pig man, ha ha charade you are. You well heeled big wheel, ha ha charade you are. And when your hand is on your heart, You're nearly a good laugh, Almost a joker, With your head down in the pig bin, Saying "Keep on digging." Pig stain on your fat chin. What do you hope to find. When you're down in the pig mine. You're nearly a laugh, You're nearly a laugh But you're really a cry. Bus stop rat bag, ha ha charade you are. You fucked up old hag, ha ha charade you are. You radiate cold shafts of broken glass. You're nearly a good laugh, Almost worth a quick grin. You like the feel of steel, You're hot stuff with a hatpin, And good fun with a hand gun. You're nearly a laugh, You're nearly a laugh But you're really a cry. Hey you, Whitehouse, Ha ha charade you are. You house proud town mouse, Ha ha charade you are You're trying to keep our feelings off the street. You're nearly a real treat, All tight lips and cold feet And do you feel abused? .....! .....! .....! .....! You gotta stem the evil tide, And keep it all on the inside. Mary you're nearly a treat, Mary you're nearly a treat But you're really a cry. Sheep Harmlessly passing your time in the grassland away; Only dimly aware of a certain unease in the air. You better watch out, There may be dogs about I've looked over Jordan, and I have seen Things are not what they seem. What do you get for pretending the danger's not real. Meek and obedient you follow the leader Down well trodden corridors into the valley of steel. What a surprise! A look of terminal shock in your eyes. Now things are really what they seem. No, this is no bad dream. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want He makes me down to lie Through pastures green He leadeth me the silent waters by. With bright knives He releaseth my soul. He maketh me to hang on hooks in high places. He converteth me to lamb cutlets, For lo, He hath great power, and great hunger. When cometh the day we lowly ones, Through quiet reflection, and great dedication Master the art of karate, Lo, we shall rise up, And then we'll make the bugger's eyes water. Bleating and babbling I fell on his neck with a scream. Wave upon wave of demented avengers March cheerfully out of obscurity into the dream. Have you heard the news? The dogs are dead! You better stay home And do as you're told. Get out of the road if you want to grow old. Pigs on the Wing (Part Two) You know that I care what happens to you, And I know that you care for me. So I don't feel alone, Or the weight of the stone, Now that I've found somewhere safe To bury my bone. And any fool knows a dog needs a home, A shelter from pigs on the wing.